I think.....

....that this may be my last post on Xanga. I'm not saying that I'm gone but that for now I am taking a break from here. For those who wish to follow, you may follow here.

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I might be back...you just have to give me time.

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I have a confession...

I've runaway and joined the outside world. I fell off the xanga wagon and hang my head in shame but I don't have the strength to keep up with two blogs right now.

This has always been a place of darkness, like Meredith says 'dark and twisty' this is that place. I'm trying to move away from that. For those who care to follow  do so.

I'm not saying that I'm gone forever but for right now I am.

I will be back one day.

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Oh the joy of cleaning...

I'm not sure why it is that I let it get to a point where there is just junk everywhere, it just happens and always will. I have been staring at the china cabinet turned bookshelf and don't recognize some of the books that are on there. I'm confused as to how long I have had them and I assume that they are mine but I'm not sure anymore.

I have to wonder though, will I be able to keep up with two blogs? I can tell that I haven't been on here enough lately to really understand or remember how to use this. I miss some of the features. I really do miss the 'Currently...' feature. I like to look at the pile of books on my desk and throw one up there or flip the channels to find a good movie to put on there.

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Christmas once again...

It's the Christmas season once again which means that soon we will be faced with the thought of having to think about the New Year's resolutions and what will be looking forward to in the New Year and then thinking back on all that this year was. But I really don't want to do that kind of depressing thing where I think back on all of the things that have changed this year because well it doesn't matter anymore. You have to think about what will happen and what you can do to make sure that those are the things that you are focused on taking care of.

Trying to keep myself positive and keep myself employeed. I can't stand the thought of not having a job right now and my mind is just so full and I kinda am beginning to understand why our General Manager is the way that he is. It's kinda crazy and stupid and the inmates may in fact be running the asylum right now.

love ya! and i promise to be back more.

been awhile....

It's been awhile since I've been on here. I promise that I haven't forgot I just have been extremely busy. I have tonight and tomorrow off from preparing lessons and tomorrow is already booked with spending my time with my mom, mother-in-law, future sis-in-law and her mom. I'm trying to put aside bitterness and just go with it.

Joe_K has been trying to get me to understand the concept of relaxing. And I have to admit that I absolutely hate the idea of relaxing. It makes me feel vulnerable. Writing and reading is my relaxing and that just doesn't fall into my time scale. That and blogging are my way of relaxing. Sitting up at one or two in the morning in a dark room with only the glow of my computer screen to keep me copy but those days are gone. I work seven days a week at three different jobs and I have my Sugar Bear to keep my company at night. That has made a lot of difference in the way that I sleep. I have spent the last few nights sleeping like a child, face down in my pillow with my mouth wide open which means that yes a lot of times I wake up with my pillow covered in drool.

I am currently trying to figure out what to buy for Christmas presents. I know that some people will be getting homemade presents but there are some that will be getting actual presents or I think at this point it all depends on the power or lack of the almighty dollar.

Maybe I will get a chance to write here I hope that I can try and work my way back into doing this.

love ya!